Mashonda To Alicia Keys: “I Should Have Cheated”

Before we get into the proceedings today, let’s just take a minute to diggity check ourselves before we wreck ourselves. In other words, get your mechanical pencils and Hello Kitty sticky pads out. Swizz Beatz is married to Mashonda, however, the two are “estranged.” Swizz Beatz is “allegedly” messing with Alicia Keys. Mashonda has a son by Swizz Beatz and, therefore, once a divorce is finalized will carry the name “baby mama.” (SMH…) Now, with more confusion in your head than those Sudoku puzzles in the back of your free morning paper, let’s check out Mashonda’s open letter to Alicia…props to for the full transcript…(grab your reading glasses and Altoids containers, folks…you’re in for one of those “Never Ending Story”-type reads…)

“After having a great evening with my son and enjoying some fun twit chat, I decided to sign off and get some work done. However, a few hours later I was advised that I should check @aliciakeys twit page. I’ve never reached out to her on twitter before. I feel our issues are a lot more serious than a website conversation. Not to mention that I’ve reached out to her many times in the beginning of this whole thing, as any wife would do. Unfortunately, I never succeeded in getting a response. The 1st time I meet AK, my husband introduced us to each other at an event. ( I have no choice but to call him my husband, until he is not anymore) In the messages that I sent to her (AK), I made it very clear that on the contrary of what she might be hearing, I am still married to my husband, living with him and just had a child. Its been two years and I still have not received a response. What I do receive, is constant displays of selfishness and disconcern to me and my son.

I was a fan of AK’s last album, we were both signed to J Records and I always checked up on her projects. I sang her songs and admired her for creating Superwoman and Karma, I would never deny her, her talent. I believed in her until I found out she was possibly sleeping with my husband. The affair was denied by both, until it was finally admitted months later.

Already I can hear some of you saying ” why are u blaming her, You cant make someone leave their wife, You cant break something thats broken”. Well, my marriage was not broken, as far as I knew we were celebrating our sons birth and getting ready to celebrate our 5 year wedding anniversary . Call it blind love, whatever. I call it being a devoted wife.. As far as me blaming her and not blaming him, thats false. Me and my husband have worked out our differences. We are in a good place as people and as parents. I accept his choices and I am comfortable enough with myself to move on. I am so very blessed in many ways.

My concern with AK is no longer the fact that she assisted in destroying a family but that she has the audacity to make these selfish comments about love and wanting to be with someone, even after knowing their situation. How is this the same Superwoman that I sang out loud with in my truck? I ask myself sometimes.

If you are reading this Alicia, let me start by saying, you know what you did. You know the role you played and you know how you contributed to the ending of my marriage. You know that I asked you to step back and let me handle my family issues. Issues that you helped to create.

Im not saying everything was perfect all the time but no relationship is perfect. We made a vow to God and I believe you should have respected that, as a woman. I know you owe me or my son nothing but I just wish you would’ve handled things more carefully. I’m not judging you, I put you and the whole situation in the hands of God, the Higher Power. Just know that as a woman, I expected so much more from you. I never had intentions on reaching out to you this way but after reading your twits tonight, and the constant disregard, you left me no choice. I feel that after 1 and a half years of you hiding this affair and acting like it doesnt exist, that now is the time to confront it, since you talk so openly about it now

This is not a publicity stunt, I dont have a record coming out. I just need to close this chapter in my life and that means confronting our issues. There is a small child involved. His dad loves him to death and he wants to spend more time with him but hes afraid because he knows we don’t have a relationship. This is my main concern. My son NEEDS his dad and I NEED to be comfortable with you. For him!

I know many will see my point and many will not be able to look into what’s real because they only want to see Alicia Keys the celebrity, not the human. This is not for the “people”, this is for you. Like I said I was left no choice but to reach out to you this way. By now, Im sure you want to find a balance in this as well.

I read your tweets tonight and I felt they were very insensitive. You have no idea how much pain I was caused because of this affair. Its baffling to me that you don’t understand what I might have gone through with this situation. I dont consider myself a victim anymore, Ive learned alot from this! I just ask you to try and be a bit more realistic and delicate to the situation, at least until my divorce is final. I felt me attending the party would have been a starting point for us, since you shook my hand after I offered it, but I suppose I was wrong.

If its so, that you and my husband are meant to be together, then God bless you both and I hope you never have to deal with what I did. I would not wish it on my worst enemy. If you two being together forever is the case, its more of a reason for us to get along, because I’m not going anywhere. Theres a child to be raised.

To answer your tweet, choose smart over spark. Sparks burn everyone, be smart! Its simple actually, just think of the shoe being on the other foot.

Stay blessed and lets work this thing out with respect and dignity.”

Now being the loyal readers you guys are, you’ve either read all of this or just scrolled downward skimming lines like you’re about ten minutes away from “college exam” time and didn’t bother to study last night. We could put our two cents in (which we will) but it’s vital to understand: when it comes to “love,” as Mashonda so elegantly called it, you have to leave it to this lil’ thing we call “fate.” Was it just a booty call for Swizz Keyz or was it on the Mary J. Blige tip? Time will tell... Swizzy maybe tried to play Pitt to Mashonda’s Jen too much but forgot about having a lil’ one attached to their name, while Keys-Jolie watched in the background. (This is all movie stuff, folks...borderline WWE in some cases.)

Either way, we’ll see how it all goes down. But for the time being, Mashonda…I see you as more than a MILF, but rather, a tender soulful singer who is looking for someone to talk to... so let’s either get an interview set up or hit me on the low... once the divorce papers are finalized. - @CyrusKLanghorne

Mashonda To Alicia Keys: “I Should Have Cheated”