Self Esteem, a.k.a. British solo artist Rebecca Lucy Taylor, finds herself asking rhetorically "what I might have achieved, if I wasn't trying to please" on her catchy new single "Rollout." The groove-laden pop song is filled with a bittersweet regret and a healthy dash of optimism, the kind only found in your saddest moments.
Produced by Johan Hugo (M.I.A., Miguel, Santigold), "Rollout" is Taylor's third single and continues her musical exploration away from her other band, Slow Club. She describes the track as "a very simple bloody break-up song" inspired by a recent split.
Speaking to The FADER via email, Taylor said: “In my last relationship I used to joke that I couldn't write about her because we never had any problems. We never argued. I used to say: ‘Can you treat me a bit more badly please, so I can write some more songs?’ And it was a joke, but it was true. And then one day she just left, and I was, like, ‘Shit.’ But then I was also so happy in a really sadistic way because I had something to write about. I just went straight in and had this idea for 'Rollout.' It’s about how I was in a pantomime and people kept sending me flowers, and I kept thinking they would be from her, and they never were from her. It was just a room full of flowers. And what is a room full of flowers if the flowers aren't from who you want them to be from?”
Thumbnail image courtesy of Charlotte Patmore.